It must be the heat

my knees went weak from
the anxiety
it was only 7 am
too early for this
i pleaded silently

now it's the evening
on days like this
at times like these
my head starts swimming
just plain tired

my thoughts attack themselves
declaring myself the winner
once again

does it end
will it end
should i be the one to end it

i listen for the voice
i want to hear it
maybe i keep myself from it
maybe there is no voice
but i'm betting there is
has to be
it's all i've got
to believe in

he said he doesn't hear it either
"maybe he doesn't love me"
he exclaims with tears in his eyes
i assure him that he does love him
and to keep listening

i'm trying to take my own advice

Quote

Another bit of crack news reporting from our local media caught my eye today. It included one of the best quotes I've read in a long time:

"I may be blond but I know what a deer looks like. This was a black kangaroo!"

Read some of my earlier posts about the local news here in Oblivion.

I finally know what I'm really worth....

I am worth $1,498,160 on HumanForSale.com

Wristbands...

I thought I'd share some pics of the nifty new wristbands I'm selling on Ebay and soon to be listed on my website. I have several different designs: Rainbow wristband with the word PRIDE stamped into it, Black wristband with the double intertwined female symbols on it, Black wristband with the double intertwined male symbols on it, Bisexual Pride colors wristband and a Leather Pride colors wristbands with a red heart on the side.