Dad, I love you and miss your big hugs and scratchy beard already. I am grateful to have so many happy memories of you. You taught me how it feels to be truly and unconditionally loved. You showed me that Dads aren't always perfect but, that doesn't mean they should give up trying. You told me that if something is worth doing, then it's worth doing right.
Dad, you had so much happen to you in your life, even from an early age... You could have used any number of things as an excuse to give up, but you didn't. You just changed course and didn't feel sorry for yourself. Your life showed me that things don't always work out they way you think they should, but you deal with it and learn to adjust your own expectations instead.
Thank you for being there for me no matter what. I couldn't have asked for anything more, even though sometimes I did. I was honored to have called you Father in this lifetime. I loved you then, now, tomorrow and can wait to see you in the next one.
Ride free Daddy and enjoy the scenery, salt water taffy, popcorn and fishing along the way.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Anyday - Ani Difranco
I will lean into you
and you can be the wind
I will open up my mouth
and you can come rushing in
you can rush in so hard
and make it so I can't breathe
I breathe too much anyway
I can do that anyday
I just wish I knew who you were
I wish you'd make yourself known
probably you don't know I'm her
the woman you want to call home
I'll keep my ear to the wall
I'll keep my eye on the door
'cause I've heard all my own jokes
and they're just not funny anymore
I laugh too much anyway
I can do that anyday
have you ever been bent or pulled
have you ever been played like strings
if I could see you I could strum you
I could break you
make you sing
but I guess you can't really see the wind
it just comes in and fills the space
and everytime something moves
you think that you have seen its face
and I've always got my guitar to play
but I can do that anyday
and you can be the wind
I will open up my mouth
and you can come rushing in
you can rush in so hard
and make it so I can't breathe
I breathe too much anyway
I can do that anyday
I just wish I knew who you were
I wish you'd make yourself known
probably you don't know I'm her
the woman you want to call home
I'll keep my ear to the wall
I'll keep my eye on the door
'cause I've heard all my own jokes
and they're just not funny anymore
I laugh too much anyway
I can do that anyday
have you ever been bent or pulled
have you ever been played like strings
if I could see you I could strum you
I could break you
make you sing
but I guess you can't really see the wind
it just comes in and fills the space
and everytime something moves
you think that you have seen its face
and I've always got my guitar to play
but I can do that anyday
Monday, September 15, 2008
The Root of All Evil
I had completely forgotten all the amazing lessons
I was fortunate enough to have been dealt
Money
The currency of my lesson
Of my depression
Of my obsession
The conduit of the exceptional
Unbeknownst changeThat my life was to undergo
I was fortunate enough to have been dealt
Money
The currency of my lesson
Of my depression
Of my obsession
The conduit of the exceptional
Unbeknownst changeThat my life was to undergo
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Back in the Saddle Again
Where do I begin? Let's see...
My dream came true of successfully running my own retail store, Superfly, for just over a year. I then decided between the commuting costs, overhead, time, etc. that it would be more cost effective going back to strictly online sales. In turn, I closed down the store and spent my summer working my own hours and hanging out with my son at the same time.
Julian's almost twelve now and usually I would be off to work and he'd be in day camps or at the sitter's. So, this was the first time we've ever gotten to spend a whole summer together. We were both thrilled! It was very relaxing, productive and did wonders in the bonding department. Now he is back to school and so am I...
Julian has begun fifth grade at a brand new middle school Fine Arts program. This is the first year for the school and so far he loves it. He is guaranteed at least two class periods a day in subjects such as Graphic Design, Sculpture, Pottery, Dance, Voice, Drama, Band, Painting, Broadcasting, etc. When I was his age, I would have killed to have had the option of going to a school like this. This got me thinking about returning to college and finishing my Fine Arts degree that I abandonded so long ago.
Thus, I began filling out applications, transfer papers, financial aid stuff, getting my transcripts in order and meeting with advisors. Yesterday I registered (ONLINE! - How cool is that?) for classes. I'm taking three classes this semester including a Painting Level II class that I am sooo excited about. I get to spend every Friday from 9am - 2:30 pm actually PAINTING!! Just to have a block of time set aside to do nothing but be creative again sounds like heaven to me. I'm a bit nervous about being an older student, but this is a Community College and so far, every time I've been on campus it looks like I'm not alone. And, I think I only need 16 credit hours and I'll be finished! Wish me luck :)
Other than lots of change, change, change, life is good. I'm on a positive track and can't wait to see where it will lead me.
By the way, I've started up The Big Question again. Be sure to stop by:
http://www.bigquestion2day.blogspot.com/
My dream came true of successfully running my own retail store, Superfly, for just over a year. I then decided between the commuting costs, overhead, time, etc. that it would be more cost effective going back to strictly online sales. In turn, I closed down the store and spent my summer working my own hours and hanging out with my son at the same time.
Julian's almost twelve now and usually I would be off to work and he'd be in day camps or at the sitter's. So, this was the first time we've ever gotten to spend a whole summer together. We were both thrilled! It was very relaxing, productive and did wonders in the bonding department. Now he is back to school and so am I...
Julian has begun fifth grade at a brand new middle school Fine Arts program. This is the first year for the school and so far he loves it. He is guaranteed at least two class periods a day in subjects such as Graphic Design, Sculpture, Pottery, Dance, Voice, Drama, Band, Painting, Broadcasting, etc. When I was his age, I would have killed to have had the option of going to a school like this. This got me thinking about returning to college and finishing my Fine Arts degree that I abandonded so long ago.
Thus, I began filling out applications, transfer papers, financial aid stuff, getting my transcripts in order and meeting with advisors. Yesterday I registered (ONLINE! - How cool is that?) for classes. I'm taking three classes this semester including a Painting Level II class that I am sooo excited about. I get to spend every Friday from 9am - 2:30 pm actually PAINTING!! Just to have a block of time set aside to do nothing but be creative again sounds like heaven to me. I'm a bit nervous about being an older student, but this is a Community College and so far, every time I've been on campus it looks like I'm not alone. And, I think I only need 16 credit hours and I'll be finished! Wish me luck :)
Other than lots of change, change, change, life is good. I'm on a positive track and can't wait to see where it will lead me.
By the way, I've started up The Big Question again. Be sure to stop by:
http://www.bigquestion2day.blogspot.com/
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