Unconfined

I watch her sleeping
and wait for her to wake
with those sleepy eyes,
quiet sighs and heart full of
aches and pains.

I touch her skin,
I kiss her lips
and study her face
with my fingertips.

I hang on every last one
of her unspoken words
which all sound
like some song
that I’ve
never,
ever heard.

I breathe in her sweetness
while she rests in my arms
tempting her soul to believe
that it’s no longer in harm.

Our bodies
and minds intertwined,
I finally drift off to sleep.
Side by side,
with the past behind
and exceptionally more than
I had ever hoped to find.

9/09/09

Say it ain't so

I can't
whisper the words
even to myself

Disbelief
gratefulness
utter
inner
profound
fill up the pit
bottomless
hopefulness
all at
o
n
c
e

Finally....
possibly?
Really?

Never
believed
it would happen
again
not again
but
m
a
y
b
e
truly
afraid to say
it ain't so
for the first time

That
LOVE?
L
O
V
E
could
come
here
now
true

What if?
...I'm dreaming
then as said
before
don't wake me
I want to stay
in this sleep
f
o
r
e
v
e
r
or die happy
at this very
moment

Message of Love - The Pretenders

Now the reason were here
As man and woman
Is to love each other
Take care of each other
When love walks in the room
Everybody stand up
Oh its good, good, good
Like brigitte bardot
Now look at the people
In the streets, in the bars
We are all of us in the gutter
But some of us are looking at the stars
Look round the room
Life is unkind
We fall but we keep gettin up
Over and over and over and over and over and over

Me and you, every night, every day
Well be together always this way
Your eyes are blue like the heavens above
Talk to me darlin with a message of love
Now the reason were here
Every man, every woman
Is to help each other
Stand by each other
When love walks in the roomEverybody stand up
Oh its good, good good
Say I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

The long glance backwards

I'm pretty sure no one looks at this blog anymore, but just in case.... I wanted to say that I am sitting here with tears in my eyes and gratitude in my heart. I was randomly clicking on some of my old posts and they were ripping my heart out. A few years ago I was in such a DARK place in my life. I know now that had it not been for this blog and the readers back then, that I would NOT have made it through many of those days. My first thought was to erase this blog and release it all to the universe. But, I'm not ready to lose this record of the road I traveled to become the person I am now and who knows, maybe I will start writing again...

I know so many of you stranger-friends won't see this post, but I guess I just wanted to say thank you anyways. I also wanted to say that my life is so full now. I feel strong, confident, and happy. I fill my days painting, hanging with my beautiful son and going to school - which I will be finishing in the coming Fall semester!!

The bigger picture is now so clearly visible. I'm glad there were people here that could see it when I wasn't able to. Peace.