It must be the heat

my knees went weak from
the anxiety
it was only 7 am
too early for this
i pleaded silently

now it's the evening
on days like this
at times like these
my head starts swimming
just plain tired

my thoughts attack themselves
declaring myself the winner
once again

does it end
will it end
should i be the one to end it

i listen for the voice
i want to hear it
maybe i keep myself from it
maybe there is no voice
but i'm betting there is
has to be
it's all i've got
to believe in

he said he doesn't hear it either
"maybe he doesn't love me"
he exclaims with tears in his eyes
i assure him that he does love him
and to keep listening

i'm trying to take my own advice

Quote

Another bit of crack news reporting from our local media caught my eye today. It included one of the best quotes I've read in a long time:

"I may be blond but I know what a deer looks like. This was a black kangaroo!"

Read some of my earlier posts about the local news here in Oblivion.

I finally know what I'm really worth....

I am worth $1,498,160 on HumanForSale.com

Wristbands...

I thought I'd share some pics of the nifty new wristbands I'm selling on Ebay and soon to be listed on my website. I have several different designs: Rainbow wristband with the word PRIDE stamped into it, Black wristband with the double intertwined female symbols on it, Black wristband with the double intertwined male symbols on it, Bisexual Pride colors wristband and a Leather Pride colors wristbands with a red heart on the side.

Happy Pride Month to EVERYONE!

Well, so here it is the end of June and almost the end of Pride month. I would have to say it has been a banner year for GLBT progress. Not that it's really gotten us anywhere, but in terms of visibility the results have been outstanding. We literally are everywhere nowadays, tv, newspapers, magazines, politics, wedding chapels, etc. Not that we weren't before, it's just that the conservative christian fundamentalists didn't know it then.

So during a typical June all the drag queens, kings, girlfriends, boyfriends, dykes, leather daddies (and mommas ;), and PFLAG go out on parade. We wave our flags, we dance in the streets, we get eyeballed by the media and the biggest queen in town ends up on the front page of the newspaper. But this year, I think the tone was a little different. The celebrations were a little more ABOUT SOMETHING bigger than ourselves, rather than just watching the sweaty boys in speedos getting hosed down. An article in the weekly Victory Fund enewsletter reported that more families attended the parades this year. WGN news in Chicago stated in their parade coverage that more politicians were present this year. A few straight people were also intereviewed and said they were just "Gay for the Day" and loved attending the parade just to show support and have a good time.

I wonder if any of this really signals a shift in public perception of the way GLBT people are viewed or is it just wishful thinking? Comments anyone?

Michiana OUT

Check out the new GLBT organization that I'm involved with co-founding. It's called Michiana OUT, http://www.michianaout.org

Michael Jackson Not Guilty!

Surprisingly, I was overcome this afternoon by the feverish urge to listen in on the Michael Jackson verdict. I have not followed this case too closely, through it's been hard to not hear something about it here and there. But, when they announced the verdict had been reached and was going to be read, I was hooked.

I first went to the ACIM site and listened to today's lesson so that I could keep it all in perspective. Then, I eagerly went to Yahoo, CNN, and MSNBC all at the same time seeking live video. Too bad that CNN missed out on huge viewing numbers by restricting the live video feed to paid Super Pass members. MSNBC was swamped and I never could get their feed to pull up. However, gotta hand it to Yahoo, they had a live feed (though audio was at times questionable) that was completely free. Good for them for making it available to all of us!

When it was finally read that Michael was not guilty on all counts, I was overwhelmed and very relieved for him. If the jury did their job in a fair way, then I am happy to find out the allegations were not true. Good for Michael... Being weird and addicted to plastic surgery does not make someone guilty. I'm sure he will still be just as strange as ever, but at least he can do it in peace. I hope he's learned his lesson about letting kids sleep in his bed though.

Interested in Equal Rights for all people?

Check out what we are doing here in Indiana to show our support of EQUAL RIGHTS for ALL people....

http://www.2dollarbillcampaign.org

There's no reason why this couldn't be done on a national level!

Show your support no matter where you live! Request your money in $2 bills from your bank, then go out and spend them everywhere you shop...