Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Day Two

I awoke this morning to remember that tomorrow is Day Two.

"My panic level is already going through the roof." I said, while popping my first Xanex of the day.

Think of the worst day of your life, multiply it by two and then you can imagine what my fear of tomorrow is like. Until now, I've basically been counting down the days and just trying not to think about it. I should have written up this post yesterday, because right now I am so consumed with anxiety that isn't allowing me to think very clearly.

It is a necessary day that will allow me to move on to a new chapter in my life, for that I am grateful. But, it's the unknown, the stress and the chance of a negative outcome that's grabbing me by the neck.

I need arms around my shoulders, positive words whispered in my direction, and all the prayers anyone can offer for me for a good outcome tomorrow. Light a candle for me today, will ya?

If things go ok, I'll try to post tomorrow night.

8 comments:

Clandestine said...

wherever you're going, i wish i could come to help you!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I n g e r said...

What's going on, honey? Take a deep breath--you're going to get through it, whatever it is. You're smart and wonderful.

Big hug from CT.

pack of 2 said...

Big hugs and all the positive energy in the world are being sent your way NOW. Hope it all goes well.

Angie

Lea said...

Positvie thoughts being sent your way tonight.
(((((HUGS)))))

ConnieJane said...

No matter what tomorrow brings... I'll be thinking of you. Take care of you.

scribble said...

Just checking in to see if you are ok.
Let us know ok ?
We care.

Clandestine said...

are you okay?

pack of 2 said...

peeking in to see if you are OK.